Dear Pam, Although your post on the forum was way back in July 2010 I have only just read it as your title of "shemale" caught my eye. I can really empathise with you as what you have wrote as I'm almost a mirror image of you!
I am male and in my early 50s and like you, have always wanted a womanly shape but also to perform as a man as I am still heterosexual, I know this may seem really strange!
I had been taking the BB pills for about 21 months on and off in that time with a month or so with breaks in between. and like you, I was a little bit concerned about loss of erections/shrinkage of the genitals, etc, that's the reason why I had breaks of not taking the BB pills.
Up to now erections are not a problem during the sex act and I still have early morning erections, this is a good sign for anyone who is concerned and may be worried if they're still producting enough testosterone, as early morning erections are testosterone dependent. In these 21 months the most that I took the BB pills without a break was for about 4 months at 8 per day. Last month I paid to get a private hormone test carried out and to my relief my testosterone is still within the normal range of a man of my age.
Breast size? Before I started with the BB pills I made a point of measuring my chest which was 35″ now My chest is just over 38″. My breasts still have the male shape but the fat is now there whereas before my breasts were just skin and bone as I am of very slight build. I am thinking of re-ordering more BB pills plus this male cream that Avalon Essentials are now selling.
Hope this has helped with any doubts that you have as I have many doubts and concerns myself on this subject.
Kind regards, Rachel.