Message Forum | Karen says: Hi ya'll

The Results:

I had a good session. Dr. Cole began by informing me that he had a new patient from my home town! A twenty something t-girl and her SO. He further told me that this "new girl" and her SO went to a local gay bar ( I know the one) and found several other t-girls there that welcomed her. What have I been missing?! I know the bar, The Copa, but I have never been, I mean I considered it but hadn't got the nerve up yet. I should remedy that soon.

Anyway, I told him my concern with the minute dosage I was perscribed. He said Dr Emery was cautious in the initial perscription, her concern is liver function. This "initial" perscription is for four months, it will run out in Jan. I will have a liver panel done in Jan and when Dr E sees how healthy I am, she will perscribe estrodiol and spironolactone. Till then, I may go back on TF.

Back to my session, On Dec 4 there will be a group meeting. Attending will be many of Dr.Cole's current and past patients, including the new girl mentioned above. I hope to make a few "local" contacts. Dr. Cole is encouraging me to attend as Jemma and thinks I, Jemma, should start getting out. He suggested "little" excursions such as just drive around or pulling into a drive thru, or even grocery shopping enfemme. I have a few things left to accomplish before that can happen: shape my eyebrows, learn make-up techniques, more clothes etc.

I'll keep you all informed, wish me luck.

Jemma

Just another update:

Well, I had a wonderful session with my therapist. We talked about my divorce, which was final Sept 13th. I am sad and hopeful at the same time. I told him I was drafting a letter to inform my younger siblings, who by the way have their own families, and between them I have 5 nephews. All of whom this decission of mine effects.

Dr Cole also encouraged me to continue with my simple plan, which you can view in the TG/TF Support forum. The next step being getting help with cosmetics. There is a Merle Norman in my town and I will be calling to, hopefully set up an appointment for some instruction. If they are interested in making a bit of money, they'll take me on. If not, well then, I'll find a plan B.

This will also help with his second request: I need to start getting experience as Jennifer. In fact, he gave me a letter, in the off chance I get pulled over by the police for whatever, which explaines why this seemingly male person is dressed as a woman! Consider it a get outta jail free card. Stand stuff for trans girls.

After meeting with Dr. Cole, I went upstairs and met with the endocrinologist that's on staff at the clinic. Dr. Emery is not only an MD, she is also a physcologist as well. And so, I had to got over everythning I had ever discussed with Dr. Cole, but in an abreviated form. So she is now my second opinion, and she agrees with Dr. Cole's assesment: I am Transgender!

With her diagnosys and Dr. Cole's, she prescribed a low dose hormone: Premarin (.3 mg twice daily). Which I have been taking for 5 days now. She said our goal is to lower Testosterone to 250 or lower, mine is currently 700, which is consided healthy for a male my age.

Now, I meant to inquire about the effects of phytoestrogens and products like Transfemme taken inconjunction with estrogen, but alas, I forgot. But this is what I'll be doing as soon as I order another supply of TF. Incidently, my blood test revieled no dicernable changes after having been on TF for the previous two months. Go figure.

Well, that's all I got for this update. As always, please feel free to comment or ask questions. I post these to help my fellow t-girls out there.

Jenny Marie

Well, the second laser session is now complete. Wow, the girl turned up the wattage to get a quicker reduction in facial hair. We shall see.

Jenny M

Well all,

The latest in my quest to be a woman is starting to think about Facial Feminization. I will post on TG/TF Support. I've been in touch with a surgeon and making preliminary plans for my procedures in May or June of 2011. So far, email is the only contact I've had with Ivy, the surgeons liaison. Send what I think I need. The next step is to forward some photos to them for an assessment.

The assessment will include the doctors suggestions as well as an estimate of cost. Which will allow me to start alocating the necessary funds for my procedures. I'll keep you posted on what I find out.

Till then, good luck to all.

Jenny Marie

Hey there,

Well, I thought I would share this with you. It's just a little occurrence that will let you know just how I feel most of the time.

So, my wife and I were invited to a neighbors house for a Sunday afternoon cookout and beer. A come as you are, nothing fancy thing. These neighbors we have know for 10 or so years and we have watched the three children grow to be fine young adults.

Their daughter was there and she is quite the beautiful young (19 yr old) woman. I couldn't take my eyes off her breasts. This was not a sexual desire thing. Rather it was a jealousy thing. I was thinking, if I had spoken up when I was her age or sooner, then I may have been just as endowed as her. Now that I'm on transfemme, will my breasts develop as hers have? It's just not fair, some times I think if I had the resources I have now back then, I would have been much better off.

I cried a little when I went to bed last night. But, thats the past, and "I'm sailin' for tomorrow".

Well, that's it.

Jenny Marie

Happy news today, girls!

I called my mother, she and my sis are the only two I can talk to about my transition plans. Any way before I could get to why I called, she interrupted me. She said she had a nick name for me made from my new name. She said she wanted to call me Jem, short for Jennifer Marie! Can you believe that. I had just told her about me two weeks ago and she now calls me Jem . I almost started crying tears of joy. My heart is soaring still.

Oh, happy day

Jem

Well all.

Today finds me a little better. I'm still depressed that I didn't have the courage to start this thirty, twenty or even just ten years ago. I hope that I'm not too late to enjoy life as a woman when that change becomes a reality. BTW, if you don't know, I'm 48 yrs old, though I don't look it.

Well, I've been on BB for some 23 days and still nothing to report. I hope they don't let me down.

Karen

I just watched a YouTube video of a young (25 yr old) transitioner. I have been crying for the last ten minutes. So Much Time waisted!  Waisted! And how long is this going to take?!

I don't want to waist one more precious second of my life! I should have done this long ago! Please tell me these pills will work.

Karen

P.S. I'm okay, just a little upset with myself.

Hi to all ,

I thought I'd let you know my starting measurements. I posted that I began taking BB on May 13th.

I stand: 5' 11.5″

I weigh: 184 lbs ( I hope this will decrease more. My goal weight is 170)

My chest (below the breast) is 37.5 inches

My chest (across the nipples) is 39.5 inches

My waist (at the belly button is 36.5 inches

My hips measure: 39 inches.

And there you have it. I will be posting an update at 4 months time, sooner if developements warrant . And I will post pictures as well.

Here's hoping for substantial rewards. good luck to all of us.

Karen

Post edited 2:40 am – June 29, 2010 by Jenny M.

Hi,

My name will some time soon be Jennifer Marie (although not soon enough). My story is probably similar to most of the girls like us. I knew early on that some thing wasn't quite right with me. My earliest reccollection was around four or five years old. But I really discovered what I wanted, no needed, was as an early teen. With two sisters, one older one younger, I had access to clothing and make up. I experimented when I was alone or when I went to shower. Since the internet was still decades away, I had no way of knowing that I wasn't alone, that this was a well known disorder and that there is help for girls like me.

In college, I experimented some. Body shaving, pierced one ear (acceptable back then, should've done both) let agirl friend do eye shadow and mascara on me. And tried some clothing. Ashamed, I tried to put it behind me.

Joined the U.S.Navy after college. I was to be a Marine Corp Trained Naval Aviator. But at the end of the fiscal year in 1989, they asked me what else I would like to do. The only option I liked outside of flying was an honorable release from active duty. Which I took.

In Jan 1990, I enrolled in a flight school in Tulsa, OK. While there, I again ventured deeper into expressing Jenny. Even steping out once in a while. But as usual I felt guilty over these feelings I had. Once again, I threw out everything Karen owned. I was determined to be a MAN!

I've had a few more attempts, all ending the same way. Fear, guilt and questioning. Why does a man want to be a woman? Answer: He's actually a she!

Fast forward to 2000. I was surfing the Internet one afternoon, at work I must confess, and I came across a plethora of informative sites. Others who have gone through this before me and others waiting to transition. Well, let me tell you, my eyes were opened. I started up again.

I found a therapist started and stopped the counciling  twice. Ordered breast forms and shoes and clothing. Purged those twice.

In 2008, I told the wife. That was hard, and only got half the support I needed. Told the boss, after he found I was searching the Internet for aid. Thought I was toast there! I took all my girl clothes, wigs and breast forms to Goodwill and threw everythink else into the trash!

But that last purge, the one that included telling the wife and the boss was a year and a half ago. As we all know this does NOT go away!

Over the past coulpe of years, I have done a lot of computer searches on the subject of TG/TS and Gender Identity Disorder. I found numerous sites that claim to help us in our journey to feel complete. Some were scams, surprise! Some are very informative and helpful.

This is one such site. The FAQ page is very thorough and let's not forget the testimonials with photos no less! So, today, I ordered my first batch of transfemme. I'll patiently wait for it's arrival. I made an appointment with My gender councilor. And I'm on this forum seeking support and guidance as well as offering the same.

All my love,

Jenny Marie